It is very early. I have slept very little. I have been waiting for my menses to show up and had hoped to see red this morning. Nope. Of course not. Why would things unfold as I want them to do?
Although I have no checked bags, I want to throw my bushel of fears into cargo and leave her there.
We are about to board. This is it. I see Dr. Braverman tomorrow after my first intralipids infusion in his office. I have already paid a small fortune for many of the meds I will be taking.
I would be lying if I said am not scared. I’m scared the cycle will be cancelled due to a cyst or the like. I am afraid our embryos won’t make it. I am afraid of this cycle failing in any number of ways.
That said, I have my hypnotherapy recording with me and I plan to listen to that on the first flight to settle me down and hopefully to reconnect with Azulito, our little spirit baby.
Here we go!