I am officially pregnant. So said Dr. Braverman late yesterday in an e-mail that came after one from my IV nurse at his office saying she was sorry but the lab here back home would not release results from my blood tests yesterday (beta-hCG, progesterone, TSH because of my history of sharp spikes in early pregnancy) to Dr. Braverman’s office.
Dr. Braverman’s e-mail was a welcome surprise. Here’s the skinny from a very early lab visit on 6 days past 5-day transfer (6dp5dt):
The TSH is up from 1.10 but Dr. B is happy about all of these results. The LP and I are too. I am still waiting for the other shoe to drop but I’ve bit the bullet and booked flights to NY to get the immune testing done (I will be having Dr. Braverman monitor this pregnancy – what’s another $3,000 plus lab costs of likely $1000 – $1500 once or twice more at this point?). I need to get my next Intralipid IV done on Friday and I’m hoping the blood draws can all be done Thursday.
Early tomorrow morning (I was at the lab for 6:00 a.m. yesterday and will be again tomorrow) I will go for beta #2. I am anxious but working hard to restore the calm confidence I had after Gertrude and Alice were transferred from catheter to womb last week Tuesday. Fingers crossed, prayers on overdrive, acupuncture today (thank you, T!) and the hypnotherapy recording and Circle & Bloom meditations are all on the go.
This morning I wanted to let the spirits of both embryos know that even though I know it’s likely only one has made it or will survive, I love them both very much. I also wanted to honour their voices in all of this. And so I asked for some inspiration to do their bidding with more pastels. Here is what they brought me:
I am so incredibly grateful for the outpouring of love and support you have all shown me in this past week. I sure hope my immune system does not let me and all of you down in the coming days and week – you’ve all shown such tremendous faith and hope. Thank you so much.