As the Baby Turns – 32w1d and Counting

The fun continues!

Baby Azulito/a has officially turned into head-down position. That may be mostly pointless considering that unless this placenta previa and risk of placenta accreta situation resolves itself, I will be having surgery to deliver this baby but I understand that in Chinese Medicine having baby aligned vertically is important regardless of the delivery method so I’m counting this as a blessing. At least until the baby turns again (which could happen, the little one hasn’t been the most compliant with plans to date).

At yesterday’s OB appointment I was reminded that I’m at risk of having an emergency hysterectomy following the baby’s delivery if my imperfect placenta does not release from the wall of my uterus (or has invaded it, which can be difficult to determine on ultrasound with certainty, I’m told). I know that my OB has to make sure that I understand that this is a risk but I could have lived without the reminder. It is much easier not to worry about something when the last time it was mentioned is more than 3 months ago. The risk of this happening is not great – which is awesome – but the fact that it is a risk at all brings me to my knees every time I think about it. Plan: Do not think about it. And no visits to Dr. Google.

I have been coughing so hard from the respiratory flu I contracted (thank you, LP) a few weeks ago that I’ve pulled muscles and am now experiencing the equivalent of bruised ribs on both sides (worse on the left). This was confirmed by my OB yesterday as being just that and not something more serious, thankfully. Still, the coughing gets me up every night and has worn me out most days. My kingdom for some cough syrup or a good sedative.

I’m now 32 weeks which means about 5 weeks to go. Yesterday I discovered that the scheduled caesarean was mis-scheduled for almost 39 weeks. I felt and heard the panic in my voice as I challenged the date at my OB appointment. I barely contained myself from bursting into tears with my OB. He immediately acknowledged this was not in accordance with his instructions (his instructions were 37 or 37.5 weeks), said he’d have the surgery rescheduled and left a note on my chart instructing the staff to call me with the correct date. The risk of going to 39 weeks is stillbirth, of course, and my anxiety over that has been at an all-time high this past month so I really did not need that emotional kick in the cajones yesterday. I have yet to receive a phone call and I will be calling tomorrow if I have not heard by then. Call me distinctly unhappy about this hiccup.

In other news, I have our next follow-up and first biophysical profile (BPP) ultrasound with the Perinatology (Maternal Fetal Medicine) Clinic at our local women’s hospital later this morning (very soon, in fact). I am praying that baby Azulito/a passes that test with flying colours because more worries is something I can live without. I am also scheduled to speak with the Pediatric Urologist about those enlarged kidneys, what they could mean, how any medical issue with them might get diagnosed after delivery and what treatments could be required if they are not simply “large normal” or don’t resolve on their own as everyone hopes.

The LP is in trial today so I’m going it alone at these two medical appointments (same with yesterday’s little chat about placenta accreta, hysterectomy and messed up delivery dates). This is probably better for him in the sense that he is able to stress and worry less when he is not face-to-face with these realities but I do wish things were otherwise and he could be with me. My nerves feel jangled.

On that note and how to unjangle: Later today, I will be seeing an energy healer whom I’ve never met before. She’s trained in Reiki, Yuen Method and Trilotherapy. If any of you have experience with the latter two practices, I’d love to hear from you! My long-time TCMD and acupuncturist recommended I see this woman after I admitted to being at a breaking point last week emotionally from being sick with the flu, sick with morning sickness that has debilitated me despite the drugs lately, and being scared of this baby not making it out of me alive. She suggested it did not seem to be something physical in origin but energetic or spiritual. I’ve been warned that this healer is “a little out there”. We shall see. It cannot hurt. I hope.

Finally, tonight the LP and I are going on a date (!?!) to celebrate our fifth wedding anniversary. When we got married, I wanted to go to Italy and be married with two witnesses and nothing else. The LP wanted a big wedding. We did the latter and the deal was that by our 5th anniversary we’d make that trip to Italy that I wanted (I really wanted to get married on the Amalfi coast. Cliché perhaps, I know, but call me romantic and in need of an exotic honeymoon). Well, that’s not going to happen. This is our fifth and we are so in debt as a result of the past two and a half years of trying to have a second living child that a trip to Europe is out of the question. Maybe for our tenth?

It’s weird to think about the fact that we’ve been together for over 8 years… almost 9 years though officially only eight and a half… we have been through so much, suffered so many heartaches and heartbreaks. We each wear many scars from our prior lives and from the wounds that came with forging a life and trying to build a family together. I started trying to get pregnant before we were even married… wow. It has been a rather lengthy and complicated journey. Ten pregnancies later, here I am… praying that baby Azulito/a comes home in our arms, safe and sound, in another 5-ish weeks and celebrating five years of marriage to my soul mate.

Excuse me whilst I wipe away the tears.

It will be a busy day. Wish us luck. Please.


20 thoughts on “As the Baby Turns – 32w1d and Counting

  1. I can’t believe your at 32 weeks that’s so amazing… I wish that this pregnancy would have been nicer on you and your body. I can’t even imagine what you have gone through.. You got this girl just a few more weeks. I hope they fix that delivery date to relieve some stress. Update: not much going on with me taking a break and looking at both options carefully before we pull the trigger.. The last one for me!! Sending positive thoughts and a good day!!

  2. Happy Anniversary !! I see why we are kindred sisters !!! I am infatuated with Amalfi !! That is my country in my heart.

    Yay Azzie/a !!! Way to turn the right way lol. So happy things are progressing and you are almost at the end ! Can’t wait to meet this little one 🙂

  3. Wow, sounds like you have a packed day. I hope the appt goes well today and puts your mind at ease. I am also interested in hearing about the session with the energetic healer, and what you’ve got planned for your anniversary date! We’ll be married five years this August, and time just flies when you’ve been suffering with IF and RPL, doesn’t it? 5 more weeks until baby Azulito/a is here…. I am wishing you a smooth and peaceful remainder of pregnancy, and a healthy baby at the end of your rainbow 🙂 Hugs and love to you, my friend.

  4. Hooray for an update from you! I’ve been thinking about you and wondering. 🙂 I’m glad Baby A decided to shift orientation for you. That’s one step in the right direction. I wish the other stuff would straighten out for you, though. They BETTER get that date right!!! I’m sure they will. You will be proactive and make sure they do what they are supposed to. And there’s plenty of time to get it all fixed and straightened. Try to focus on those sorts of things – the things you have a degree of control over. It’s hard, so much about pregnancy is out of our hands.

    I can relate to wanting to do something special for big anniversaries. I always dreamed of doing a big trip just the two of us for our 10th, which was last year. Needless to say, it did not happen. Mostly because of money and pregnancy, the latter being a great reason! But it’s disappointing nonetheless. On our 5th, we didn’t even see each other. But, we did manage a vacation to coincide with our 6th, so maybe if the milestone years don’t work for you, just pick a year that works and go for it!

    Take care, thinking of you, and hope your busy day went well. 🙂

    • That’s great advice. Forget the milestones and just live! Thank you for hearing me. Yesterday’s medical and energy appointments helped put things in perspective – funny how life does that from time to time.

      • You know, you’re absolutely right. The universe does always balance itself out eventually. Not always when and how we want it to, but it does happen. Hmm, that’s a good reminder for me right now, actually!

  5. “A little out there” sounds right up my alley. Can’t wait to here how that session goes. I also wish I lived closer. I’d come hold your hand while the LP is in court. I know how nerve wracking appointments can be. Sending you much love to makes these next 5 weeks go by smoothly and with minimal worries. ❤

  6. I hope you have a wonderful anniversary!

    I’m sorry that you’ve been through so much and that you’re not feeling great still. 😦 I hope these next five weeks go by quickly and easily and that you have a smooth delivery (on the correct date!!!). Many hugs and much love to you!

  7. Happy Anniversary! It’s crazy that people can go through so much in such an overall small amount of time. Happy for the update, been thinking about you. Sorry about the pulled muscles – ouch! My SIL had the same thing late in her pregnancy. She said it felt like having broken ribs. Baby A moving head down is a good step. S/He is getting ready… Sorry you’re not getting your trip to Italy this year, but you’ll make it one day I’m sure. I hope your appt goes well today and you and the LP have a lovely dinner.

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